What Becomes Us?

My days have become monotonous, filled with the same routine that has become my life. Over all there is not much to complain about at this moment. I have a roof over my head, I have food to feed my children, and for the most part, my children are in good health. But for a moment, break down your life, what is there really to keep you focused and in a complete state of bliss? Where is my bliss? what do I have on a personal level to make me feel like my life is good enough for me? There was a time where I thought that I had things figured out, even though everything was not picture perfect, I had a family that I thought would live and grow with me until I was old and on my last breath. There are many people that are content with a life alone and require nothing more than what they have provided for themselves. It is perhaps what these people have that I yern for, Self contentment. But all I have is myself and a pocket full of dreams that I may never have and experience. I want to see what the world has to offer outside of my box. But even if I never have that, I just want someone to share anything with. I dont do so well with alone. I need someone to give my love to and for them to want to give me theirs. Someone that I can get lost in their eyes and nothing else matters. Someone that wants who I am and who can accept my flaws, and I want to be able to return that. Real love.