Final Goodbyes

For the first time in all these years, I have realized without a doubt, that what you feel for me is finally over. I hear no regret, no doubt in your words, that what you want is not me. That what you think will make you happy in life, you can not find in me, what I am, is not good enough to make you smile anymore. I want to know that you are happy, I am just saddened that I have given half of my life to you just to find, that it was never enough.
My tears can not fall fast enough to catch up with the bleeding of my heart. I have to block you out of my mind, and hopefully my heart, for the thought of you laying with someone else, destroys my soul. I am left here alone, trying to pick up the pieces of me, what little is left of me.
As I finally take down your pictures, and the pictures from our wedding, I cry hard, and can barely see. A broken heart, a broken soul, a broken home. How will I fix this all?
You are gone, and you aren't even here to tell me in person, I cant hear your voice, or see your face. Who are you? I don't even know anymore. You are disappearing and I can't even stop you. This is what you want, and when I turn to go, I will never turn back to see if you are even looking. If you find yourself lost and alone, I will not be there to comfort you, and tell you its ok. I will not be there ever. I hope you know what your doing. Because im disappearing too.